You know when you get so excited you can’t sleep? When you realize you’ve stumbled upon the next length of your journey by coming to the right crook in the road to get a proper vantage point and suddenly the path opens up for you? That’s what’s been going on for me this week.
I’ve been applying for jobs.
“Why is an entrepreneur applying for jobs?” I hear you asking. Well, simply because- I love the path that I’m on, I’m looking for some heart-wild sidekick to travel with. There are a lot of amazing businesses out there, some savagely brilliant entrepreneurs I’d love to team up with.
I keep seeing the listings for social media management jobs, and I giggle to myself “I can get paid to do THIS?” That’s when you know you’ve hit the sweet spot, when someone will give you money to shine. Granted, there are days I feel like a tarnished tea pot- I’m an unfinished piece… I have a lot of learning to do still and I want to be in that sparky environment to make it combust.
I love what I do- there is something awesome about working with authors, entrepreneurs & brands that mean something significant. I often feel my big ideas are still half baked, so I garner immense pleasure being the mouthpiece for others and cultivating their communities.
My work in social media has been by far some of the most rewarding work I’ve ever done- it has brought my philanthropic interests to life once again, has put me in touch with a plethora of amazing people, and allowed me to make friendships around my nerdy interests in British sci-fi.
I went through two bleak years of graduate school forcing myself to do what was “right” for my career, only to give up and follow what makes me tick. I wanted something that gave back, but didn’t burn me out. I wanted to be around big ideas and share them without having to run in elitist circles. I yearned to contribute to the global conversation without having to get a dissertation in pretentiousness. I wanted my ideas to accessible, retweetable and open to the reviewers of the everyday world, not the minds locked in an ivory tower.
I believe it’s possible to have your cake and eat it too when it comes to work- you can have a day job that is congruent to your personal passions without boxing up who you are on nights and weekends. Even if you have to get creative to make it happen, I implore you to explore. Don’t stop searching until you regain that spark and get your hands dirty in the nitty gritty of who you are and what lights you up.
I don’t ever write rambling blog articles at this late hour- but I’m thrilled for the next chapter. I’m ready to find what’s out there, ready to make an arse of myself in order to learn new things and to amplify what matters. We’re coming up on the two year anniversary of Kassie‘s passing- a dear friend who was taken too soon, but in her own way- reminded us that feelings of loss can only be experienced when first, great love existed in its place. Loss like that hurts so bad because love was so great. What a swift reminder to live with tenacity and get excited about life while we have it, taking no time for granted.