Do you ever do things that completely scare you, push your boundaries and make you tremble inside? You know that even when you’re all shaken up on the inside, when you’re scared but totally smiling about it- you’ve made the right call.
I’m sitting here right now, fumbling on a new MacBook Pro (Nope, I do *not* know how to use it either!) which I just paid for with more of my own hard-earned cash than I ever imagined one would spend on a computer… it’s just another instance in my life where fear and imagination collide in ways that freak you out but make you smile.
See, here’s the thing- I have made the decision not to go back to the way I was. Submitting job application after job application, hoping to tailor myself for whatever was out there being offered to my skill sets. I have made a decision to fly the conformist coop and completely do my own thing, and as I sit here fumbling with my new Mac like an idiot, I feel that this is just a symbol of the times:
So late last year I decided I would join the $30k Challenge. I have never made $30k doing anything- ever. What the hell was I thinking?
How would I hit $30k doing what I love? That sat in the pit of my stomach for weeks.
Then I had an idea to launch another site.
…and a podcast.
I could talk about blogging & online entrepreneurs who quit the grind to do what I was doing, but wayyy bigger.
So I secured thefrugalpreneur.com. It sat there for over a month before I grew the cajones to get past the blinking cursor and say something.
...and realized that my limited technology & limited skills were going to hold me back. What I hadn’t outgrown, I had at least learned that I would never be able to do everything by myself all the time and learn from scratch. I had to get unstuck.
So I called Jenny Blake and got on board with her coaching and her awesome Make Sh*t Happen course.
Damn, that was a lot of money for a broke person…I never thought I’d spend that much on “personal development.”
I was scared, and spending money I wasn’t accustomed to spending, but knew it was right- and beyond feeling good about it, under the surface things were quietly stirring.
Somehow, I gained the wisdom to not try and tackle everything from scratch on equipment that had to be frugally finagled to work at my will. Limited mindsets and limited technology can be fixed.
Better equipment would enable me to do what I do better, and when possible, hire someone brilliant to do what I could not. There was no time to waste on insufficiencies- focus on strengths (even if that means hiring a professional).
So I bought a better microphone and commissioned a logo- instead of fumbling through it myself for once. (Cha-ching)
…and when the graphics card on my PC started to go out and I realized I needed better video and editing software, I got frustrated.
After I got frustrated, I got a Mac. (Cha-Ching, Cha-Ching)
…and after I stopped hyperventilating? I got damn excited. Not the normal shaking- but like I said, it was soul stirring stuff going on.
I have never spent that much money on a piece of equipment. Then again, I have never really cared about anything this much either to put that much money down for a project, and heck- quality of life. Yep, I drank the Kool-Aid.
Then I sent out some emails to people I admired to ask them to be on said podcast and they said YES.
…and I did a happy dance for a significant amount of time…
Then….I ended up here. Standing before a vast open space of what’s before me.
I can’t tell you what tomorrow will bring- but I will tell you, now you’re in on it!
Every time you tweet. Every time you give me feedback. Any time you send me those great emails. When you send good karma my way- you’re fueling this and I love you for it.
MacBook Pros are amazing! My husband just traded up to one (I'm still on just a MacBook, but will have to shell out the cash soon myself). As a sidenote, your new project sounds great. As someone trying to break out of the 9-5 myself, it will be a welcome resource!
Aww, thank you so much for your comment! I'm using my MacBook right now..it's kinda-sorta-making sense and I know it'll be great once I get the hang of it.
Thanks for the encouragement on my new project- I hope it'll be a help as you try to quit the grind. I'll be interviewing amazing folks that did just that! 🙂
Congratulation with tour new business!!! I would love to hear more ajour the "make sh*t happens" course. Could you write more about it?
Grrr… Love my ipad's autocorrect…
For sure Ella! I would love to post more about Make Sh*t Happen. I know I was hesitant to do "personal development" stuff but it's been GREAT for business and my personal life and overall happiness. I think it's a great investment! Thanks 🙂
Also I noticed on the frugalpreneur logo, preneur seems misspelled, it says frugalprenuer – or is it my bad English?
Ella, OMG you are so right! My designer and I didn't catch it, thank you SO much. I got the URL right..but the logo is wrong..thank you SOOO much!
No problem. Love the new blog!
Thanks doll- and SO glad you caught that..I owe you one! 🙂
Ahh I've always wanted a Mac but I'm deadset and determined to use my laptop until it finally dies. It should be a couple of years until that happens, because the one I'm using is relatively new still, since my boyfriend dropped my old one and gave me his. I know what you mean by your purchases scaring you a little – I just sunk money into my blog design and I LOVE it. I see it as an investment because I'm taking my blogging more seriously, but it was sort of the first step to taking my blogging more seriously so my heart fluttered a bit when I pressed "send money".
I remember when I paid for a domain and bought the font for the logo I have now…it was chump change in the scheme of things but scared the cheez-its out of me! I think it's great you invested in a layout, I know it's scary but it feels darn good…I don't regret a penny of it now but it still ties your tummy up in knots committing to pay for it!
As for the Mac, I converted simply because it had the video and audio editing software built right in that would do the job- otherwise I probably would have stuck with my PC until the keys stopped working. Then again, it got to the point where it was too slow to do the things I needed- editing pictures and the like.
Keep growing and I LOVE the new layout!!! 🙂
First off I want to say "I wanna be Shannyn when I grow up". Serious! I've always admired your positive attitude and go-getter personality. It's very inspiring and makes me push my own boundaries.
Second, congratulations times 10 for doing something completely scary but awesome. I'm a MASSIVE fan of podcasts (I should probably start my own at one point), so I can't wait to listen to your sessions.
I can tell you already I will subscribe and share the podcasts whenever you publish them. Can't wait! Please write more about your progress and how you go about the whole process. Thanks a million!
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